Clear the mind
One of those days--everything sucks
To say that this year has been testing my patience, is an understatement. It seems to be increasing as the year comes to an end. It's sincerely hard for me to keep my emotions in check and I think it indicates an emotionally unstable person. That is me lately and I very much dislike it.
Tomorrow I have to go to Juvenile Court due to my youngest son's excessive absences from school. I'm sure it's just a warning, but I will be going alone and the stress is about more than I can bare. In addition to that, yesterday the new director for our department passed on new "rules" that our supervisor had to relay. We're all guessing that his "rules" were magnified and taken out of context by the manager. One of the new standards is that we are to be at work no later than 8:00 a.m. We are an IT department and have always worked within the 7-6 schedule, giving everyone a chance to stagger their hours as needed. But now, we all must be here before 8:00, which means that I have to leave before my son gets on the bus (hubby leaves even earlier). Taking him to school earlier is not an option, since it is on the other side of town and would actually increase my travel time to work. I do have neighbors that can watch him at the bus stop, but waiting to get him out there would put me 10 minutes late to work. Obviously, this is giving me an enormous headache trying to work out. I don't want to be the one to complain at work and ask for exceptions. I've already been passed over for new and exciting projects. They were given to the single guy. I was told that I would be his "backup". How thrilling is that?!
Guess I just needed to vent.
I had a dream last night that my late hubby was alive and working at a automotive dealership. I won a car at that dealership and went to pick it up and found him there. I wanted to spend every second with him to make up for lost time. I sat next to him and it seemed I could actually smell him (the way he used to smell) and feel his skin beneath my lips. I got the car I won and it wouldn't run, so I asked him to take me home. He couldn't...and I ended up walking home without him. ***message!***
~peace~