Clear the mind
Is it the ego being defensive?
There's a constant power struggle between my hubby and me. If I make a random statement, he corrects it down to the most minute detail. If he makes a comment, I take it personally - when maybe it wasn't intended that way. The two biggest conflicts: money & parenting. We seem to be unable to discuss these two topics at any length without one of us (or both) getting mad. This morning I made a comment - intending for it to be constructive - instead, it was taken out of context and angry words were exchanged. I admit, the comment was made based on past experiences - but it was made to change the future, not dwell on the past. I know I shouldn't be concerned about what & how he does what he does, but at the time, I felt that it was something that affected the whole family. Now I realize that "I" have to make the change (backup plan) - not expect others to. "Be the change you want to see in the world." Gandhi
I also see the ego playing a major role in how we all react. I've tried letting this go when my ego really wants to fight it out. It feels SO MUCH better when I do let it go. But some days/times I just react - knowing immediately afterwards that I let my ego win again. My goal is to learn how to undo my ego!
In approaching the ego, it is well to remember that it feeds off of and is seduced by the energy of negativity of pain, suffering, hate, and guilt to which it gets attached (addicted). It secretely nurtures the 'juice' it gets from being the martyr or the victim, and it loves hatred, being 'right', and revenge. The consciousness level of ego is based on the utilization of the qualities of force, whether they are emotional, intellectual, or physical. The undoing of the ego, consequently, is not by the utilization of moralistic or emotional counterforce but by the use of the power of truth itself. David R. Hawkins
~peace~