Clear the mind
Co-dependency
Is it Friday yet? I've asked Mr. George (the security guard) that all week. Today he smiled and said "almost". Woo hoo. It's been tough after being out last week, but fortunately, the worse is over. I had almost forgotten my HTML skills. Been so long since I used them. But yesterday I suggested that we make one of our documents an HTML document so that it will be more easily accessable on our Sharepoint portal. The dude loved it and I got started on it immediately. We met yesterday to go over what I had done and I suddenly realized that he was talking to my cleavage. I arranged my shirt a bit and told him to focus on the paper...then he laughed and said he'd rather look at my breasts. As calmly as possible, I kept getting his attention back on the work. Today he e-mailed me to tell me how much he loved what I had done so far and that our boss (director over IT) will LOVE it. That got me excited - need to finish it up and make sure all the links work. Dude thought he was being sly and invited me for "lunch" again. I declined, insisting I had way too much work to do to be out lollygagging at lunch. He said he couldn't take many more rejections, so I told him to stop asking! He's married and he knows I'm married. Whassup with that?
Speaking of marriage...I've been trying really hard to be understanding of my husband. He lost his job about 3 weeks ago. He's spent the majority of those three weeks staying in bed sleeping. I have made him large lists, small lists, sticky notes, love notes, lipstick on the mirror....everything to try and motivate him to do something besides sleep and bitch. Nothing is working so far. As I'm being patient, my paycheck is slowly disappearing with no hope of another one for another week. A week is a long time when you have NO money. But I am not blaming or being mean. I stand by my man (maybe pushing a little).
I miss having my friend at work. He's been gone for two weeks now and I'm really starting to feel lonely without him there. He would always come over during the day at work to tell me how pretty I looked or how a certain color really made me glow. He had the kindest compliments. Not that I need compliments, but it was nice to have someone care. Since he's been gone, the only people that come to my desk are those with work for me to do, or a few that come looking for chocolate. My HR rep comes by about once or twice a week to check in on me. He's cool--always making me laugh or listening to my complaints. He's a great guy, but always busy. But anyway, when my friend left, he promised we'd keep in touch as usual. I knew we would for awhile, but I knew I would miss the day-to-day interaction. Although he made some mistakes (that I've forgiven him for) it's nice to know that he truly cares about me and would never go a day without checking on me. Now we can't see each other without some kind of major travel involved. ::sigh:: I just realized how high maintenance I must be. I like a man to not be such a work-a-holic. I want his attention to be on me. I love my peace and quiet, but I also love knowing that I have a man that would drop anything for me. IT'S ALL ABOUT ME, ME, ME. :) ok, maybe some you...just because I like to please.
My girlfriend ignored 3 or 4 of my calls. I was beginning to assume the worse, but got a text msg earlier that read "check your mailbox, chick". I found a music cd she made. Cool tunes on it but it always has a deeper meaning. I'm about to listen to it now. ~peace~